As U2 sang away “oh can’t you see what love has done” I looked out the window. I was thinking again. Did I get anything from love? Did I win love? Did I manage to charm the girl of my dreams? Did I? Why “did” rather I should mention “could”.
May be I got nothing out of love apart from some crude memories.
Memories not so fond yet memories which can’t be erased from my mind!
Yet I think of the lessons learn.
I know my problem. I keep falling in love. No pun intended but it happens both ways. May be this is my nature but still I am an amateur. May be I am not to have a girlfriend. Maybe!
I fell in love with a girl when I was in class 9 and this crush or call it whatever suits your vocab went on till class 11.
This girl made me mad. She made me crazy. She made me dizzy. I was so much into pop those days. Backstreet Boys, Westlife, MLTR and any crap would do.
I still remember the day I came back from tuition seeing her. I went straight to the bathroom and began singing “MY LOVE”.
Silly of me to do those stupid things! I was young then.
Now my idea about pop and pop culture has changed over the years. Like a drug addict who joins a rehab to get free from his habit I renounced pop for good and I don’t know why now I hate it. I don’t waste a single chance to abuse this fucking pop culture.
As I moved deeper and deeper into the heavy metal territory I felt that I have attained moksha. I could identify myself with the songs. It made me tranquil. The songs were wonderful. I felt they were written just for me. My very first metal song was “NOTHING ELSE MATTERS” by “METALLICA”.
From Metallica, Iron Maiden to Dimmu Borgir and Kalmah it was great transition which I enjoyed each and every bit.
But I can’t say the same thing about love. I am still waiting for a transition.
A friend once told me that my transition to metal took place because I was hurt in love. It was a stupid remark indeed. Metal and love doesn’t mix just like water and oil. Yeah pop and love does mix. To fuck with pop and to fuck with love! I am happy the way I am living. I am living sardonically and I am loving it.
PS: I DON’T THINK MACDONALD WILL SUE ME FOR USING THEIR TAG LINE.
ANYWAY MORE GYAN WILL FOLLOW REGARDING LOVE AND MUSIC.
2 comments:
True indeed...u can go thru my post on how i came into rock...written just one day before this.
Maybe not for love but for something else.
Insightful post. I guess everyone goes the 'pop phase'.
Your post surfaced with a sense of deja vu...I know those darn 'pop days' when even inane lyrics made so much sense.
Rock of course is revelation...It gave something that spoke for me.
Great to come by this post...
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